Samathy @s@social.samathy.space

Tiredness is a listed side effect, I just really hope it's not forever.

I'm almost at the end of my first week being in Decapeptyl (Triotolin).
It has the effect of blocking the primary sex hormone, by increasing prolactin production.

For me, that means blocking Testosterone, which is being replaced by the Estrogen tablets I'm taking.

So far, the only effect is feeling completely and utterly exhausted all day. Regardless of amount of sleep.

I am also having minor eye focus issues - but that's more likely linked to being so tired, than a direct effect.

@rixx , Well, if I was looking *for* good. I still found it 😄

Yeah, I re-read it and actually thought about why it wasnt some form of "sehen", then checked the dictionary.

Thank you for your patience!

@rixx ( Zero confidence on "Suchen" being the word for "looking", as in "Looking good". Dictionaries vs translators, ugh sorry )

@rixx Ja Ja! Suchen sehr gut :D

Pocket reminding me of my bad habit: Saving articles and never reading them.

To find a key word, its just a matter of consuming regular characters until a symbol/whitespace is encountered.

And then checking if the resulting sting is in the set of keys for the map of keyword tokens.

Much better than having to switch-case every single keyword.

Its a nice feeling to be able to write a commit message:
"Support all keywords in C99" for a compiler.

Its only able to tokenize all the keywords, but I think next week I'll be ready to parse something.
The lexer is pretty much done, bar a few tokens like quotes, full stops and the doubled up operators ( like &&, >> || etc ).

Its a fairly small commit thanks to all the effort I put in on making a compile time map of strings to object factory functions.

https://github.com/Samathy/ceres-c-compiler/commit/ef5e812eaab21a4912e09adc0717c3051d3df584

@breakthesystem Ich liebe der Politik in The Expanse.
Es macht der Welt mehr Mensch.

@breakthesystem The Expanse sind meine lieblingsbücher im Moment :D Die Fernseh Show auch!

Die einzige zu Star-Trek nahe bekommen im liebe.

I have really gotten lost in the universe, to the point where I would write fan-fic if I had the time.

In fact, the forum post I linked in the gist is a prime example: https://forum.dlang.org/thread/rxmwzorpoteukxwcjsbv@forum.dlang.org

dlang's runtime silently recreates associative arrays at runtime, even if it already created them at compile time. Because the backend of associative arrays is different for RT, and CT.

No warning, just sprinkle a few 'enum' and 'static' over things and maybe `assert(__ctfe)` and you might be able to force CTFE, or you'll get an error.

I really dislike how dlang uses keywords like 'enum' and 'static' to just...signal to the compiler that it could attempt CTFE.

Its frustrating that if the compiler doesnt manage to do CTFE, but CAN do runtime evaluation, it often just, doesnt tell you and does it at runtime.

If I'm trying to make this CTFE, I want to ENSURE that its CTFE, its hard to do that.

I've spent a few hours making a fancy compile-time #dlang snippet.

It allows one to give a super class, and generate an associative array of class name strings, to factory functions for getting an object of that class.
The associative array can be a compile-time constant.

Getting this to work properly, and understanding the, honestly, awful semantics of CTFE for dlang has been HARD.

Its for using in my lexer to make token objects from input strings.

https://gist.github.com/Samathy/0ee1669eb1c0e478c8bffebee5164234

Today I have read a tweet which says "Every cell in our body is sexed (as per XX, XY)", a tweet saying "Women produce eggs, men produce sperm" and lastly, a tweet saying "Sex is about genitalia, we knew men from women before we knew about chromosomes".

All of these are incorrect in different ways.

Anti-trans folk don't even have a consistent stream of bullshit and it's kinda funny to see.

@olke I don't really blog about it anywhere other than here.

There are a lot of other people's accounts on the Internet! And it takes a lot of time write coherent blogs 😉

However, I'm happy to talk about my experiences to anyone who wants to know!

@rixx Thanks! 💯

Didn't have the injection in Feb because of some anomalous blood work results. (all good now)

And then some pandemic happened.

Today im getting my first anti-androgen ( testosterone blocker ) injection that I should have had in February.

Its gonna be a weird hormonal week. I'm scared, but overall excited to obliterate the T in my body. 🎉

Anyway, I shall probably just pick something from that list tomorrow.

Today has mostly been building the chinch cage, but I have all evening for fun things!

Something I've been working on in therapy is being able to just decide what I want to do.

I often end up decision-paralysed because I want to do *so many things* and must pick the one most likely to result in enjoyment.
So, trying to pick the one that is least risky, in terms of being worth the time.

But I've been getting a lot better at just...feeling what I want to do and doing it, rather than assigning imaginary *worthwhileness* points to things I want to do.